So This Is My Story of My First Love. Part 1

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What if the one that you've been trying to find,

has always been there,

no matter how far u go, how big u become,

You will always find ways to find each other.

Wasn't it fascinating? 

Its like, the one that got away will eventually comes back.

and bring fireworks back to ur life, after all this time.

So this is my story of my first love.

Well, not really my first love, but yeah. 

He's the first guy that I'm serious with, that's how it goes.

So let's call him Peter Kavinsky. 

('cause he's similar to Jenny Han's Peter Kavinsky in so many ways)

We first met when we were in high school.

He was the famous block in the school, famous with girls,

and there I was, unpopular, messy and well, booknerd.

Its always been normal, for an unpopular girl like me,

to like somebody as famous as he was.

Never would I thought that at the end of the day,

He likes me back.

**********

It was one of those fine and calm evening, (but gloomy for me)

I was always grumpy back then, seldomly smile, 

its to the point where other kids called me 'sombong'. heh.

While I was sitting at the corner of a bench,

there he was, asking,

"why so gloomy?"

"and... you are..?" I said in my head. 

Not replying his question anyway.

Days passed and he keeps on asking the same thing,

"why so gloomy?" "why so gloomy?" "why so gloomy?"

but with the addition of,

"I never saw you here before. You new here?"

I just don't get why this boy wont leave me alone, 

so I just went like, 

"Nope, not really. Saja tukar angin. I never exposed myself before."

Gittew kateko

Sorry, cant really remember the details but, 

ever since that conversation,

I kinda like be friends with him.

As far as I know we don't really talk that much.

He's just always there, at the place where I can easily spot him.

That's when I realize how good looking he was.

What he's been thinking, talking to me?

Talking to this grumpy messy and uptight girl.

Kau nak apa dari aku?

He used to say this on one of those days,

"jangan menangis, mata merah biar lama lama tak elok"

I quit crying, ever since then.

Do you still remember that, Peter?

***********

It was April, we went to this camping as a team representing our school.

For the record, I hate campings, I don't do adventurous stuff,

It is so weird, thinking that I joined it voluntarily, tanpa paksaan sesiapa.

While waiting for the bus, camwhore tu mestilah ada.

Back in that time, I was an ignorant kid, 

didn't really alert with anything that happens around me.

but,

In every picture that me and my friends took,

He was always there, beside me.

Like literally beside me. Why wouldn't I realize it?

and.. Why would u sit there beside me in every picture?

You're weird. I thought.

He sits next to me inside the bus, 

he offers me his earphone.

Cant remember the song, but he likes rock kapak songs back then.

In which I don't like it but I still listened to it anyway.

I felt that weird tingling feeling ever since the 'earphone sharing' thingy,

but what makes me flutter badly was when he help tied my shoestring.

Tell me, how many guys will tie a shoestring for you?

and the weird part is I don't even know much about this guy.

but what I don't like about it was that,

I start to fall hard on him. Like real hard.

Like I-cant-stand-up-and-walk-back, kinda hard. 

It is still a mystery to me, what was he thinking back then?

Why me? Why sits beside me? Why me? Why?

but to tell u the truth boy, you're the cutest during that time.

like if I could keep u forever in my pocket, I would. 

Tak tipu, You're the best, You're the cutest.
You're the one that I love with all my heart.
hahahahahaha

To be continued in Part 2...

P/S: Untuk sambungan Part 2, kalau aku rajin aku sambung, 

kalau aku rindu aku sambung, kalau aku sedih aku sambung, 

kalau aku sayang aku sambung, kalau aku nak carik gaduh aku sambung. 

hahabye.