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this morning kt cls bel
one of my former close fren, sara ask me bout this girl
lina my another former close fren.
this lina girl used to be my besfren satu ketike dulu
but i guess we're jz diffrent so she find another fren later
which is of course,
better than me.

well, sara ask me,

"lina tu da brubah ke? pkai handsock sgale bgai."

aku toleh n suddenly realize the handsock so i was like,

"oh. ye kot. bia la if dye lg suke idup dye yg skarang ni."

at first i thought i'm hppy.
sb aku bkn bg influence baek pon kt dye slame dye kwn ngn aku dlu
so i think if dye brubah jd baek y not kn?
im hppy for her.

n then otw back to kolej,
i walk wit irwansyah.
ptg ni aku n the geng na kua
skali na g repair spec aku yg tkua cermin dr bingkai tu
(or wtever its called)
sherry kte kuakan a 250 senang sket ne a tau mhl
then aku g la withdraw.
the balance for god sake,
RM813.39 (i dunno hw tht $39 bleh wujud)
ni baru na msuk 2nd month
n duit aku da tgl sket na mati
i stil have to pay for my trips.
its like wayyyyyyy ta ckup.
aku kua dr bank n wt muke monyok.
hajat na bli mknn for lunch trus tpadam
mengenangkn duit aku yg mkin sengkek ni.

ofcz la aku bad mood kn.
i dun have money
aku taley mtk kt parents aku
dorg pon tade duit
ade pon na byr ubat2 abah yg bkn murah
duit aku sewekn broadband tu tuk aku bli kete
klw aku ta kmpul skng
ble lg aku na kmpul
aku bkn makin mude
aku tatau na wt cne
ikat jela perut. taya gune duit tuk mkn.
ta kesa pon.

otw back, aku ta ckp lgsg spnjg jln ngn irwansyah.
dye plak kemain byk lak tnye
aku ni tgh tade mud ko bley tak bg aku mse btenang jap.
aku pon tatau la ape aku ckp kt dye cz aku byk sgt pk td
tp aku tau yg aku ta snyum lgsg n aku bwt muke mcm
sial.
so i guess dye cm tacing lg haha
ape2lah, aku da mls na ckp psl ni

bl da smpai blik aku tringat blek las sem
where lina ws supposed to be my besfren yg aku thegeh2kn
but dye pegi crk besfren laen mcm sial.
she used to say,

"kwn ngn amy mmg bes,
tp bl amy mrh kite rse cm AMY TLGLA BRUBAH!"

at first aku trime tu sbagai tguran
but ble aku pk2 blek,
ko igt aku mtk ke jd cmtu?
ko igt aku nak ke sume tu blaku?

i was like omigoshhh
u're not the 'so called' besfren yg aku crk
sb ko ta phm aku n ko reti na slhkn aku je
ko ade gak bwt sial kt aku but pna aku kesa?

baru aku seda gak slame ni dye konon concern kt aku
tp sbenanye tak.
what a FAKER.

glad jgk la ko da ta rapat ngn aku
sb we're not meant to be together
aku tau ko tsekse
n jz so u noe,
I FEEL THAT TOO.

aku da mls na pcaye
mls na mghrp
mls na bgantung kt sape2

i luv myself n i dun need u.
yes, YOU.